request from earth please move us farther from the sun.

Yes we need more hours in the day, less snow, more light. After rescheduling the rochester shoot we are ready to get back in. The "snow day" seemed to be a blessing from the gods. It allowed us to re group, me to sleep. I actually feel like myself again. A part of me that I had not felt in the last three months. Whether it was lack of sleep, or stress, or being obsessed with this project, I took a breather this weekend. Started reading Women by Bukowski, eat and drank well. Mmmm Ready for the week ahead. I am going back to the times to make some mulah, and getting ready to finish this film; refreshed, revived, and ready.


steve

The crumbs may be underneath snow and ice!! Yikes!

Okay, you know what??? BRING IT ON!!!

I am ready, we are ready. Mother nature give us what you've got, NYC Taxi cabs, please kamakazi all of our vehicles when you see the freedom crew cruizin the streets. Time speed up your hands and slow down ours.

This IS what film making is all about. This is what life is all about. What are you really accomplishing if you don't have to fight every inch. I feel tired, I feel scared, I feel proud, I feel focused, I feel spread thin. And we will press on.

WE have amazing ficker pics in the "can", (now in our digital age the "plastic box".) I just turned 24 yesterday. And I am living my dream.
So when I get down I realize I have no right to. Especially when I think of the people who this film is about. I need to get back down there, move some food, make people smile.

Must go to dream land. Good night.

-s

Alright steve #1

It is about damn time I posted a blog. To be honest I knew this was part of our process interms of expression ourselves and helping our project by our voices. I pushed for this to be a part of how we made this film. If nothing more than for an outlet for both jeff and i, and others who hlep make this possible.

Enough! Time for me to sit on the proverbial couch.

How do I feel? What has been going on in my life the past 23 years? I think as this is our first session I will start slow, be surfacy and quick.

I feel beyond exhausted, to the point of fight of flight is kicking in against they predator that is the mound of things to do in order to make a movie. Obviously I have chosen fight, it is just a longer fight than I anticipated and more brutal with no breaks. Ever since the beginning of this project I have been reminded of why this content is soo necessary and been finding bread crumbs of inspiration as jeff and I walk down this path.

We finished our first weekend of shooting. We have a heap of footage, most of which is absolutly amazing, and when I think about it I feel like i just got laid. Other pieces make me feel like my lover told me she was pregnant. I have gone through a range of emotions this week, so much so that I am not sure how i can still produce seratonin or testosterone any more.

Today after dropping the last piece of rental property that we were responsible for this weekend, I was riding the subway back up town, going over how I was going to raise another 3 grand in 5 days. then like a freak ghost walking though me, I felt moved like a quaker would in a meeting. "Ladies and gentlemen, I am making a short film about our new york city homeless. how many homeless people do you see on your daily commute? Why are we living in a society that accepts this, and a structure that keeps this in place. Our film will be donating 50% of it's profits to starting,.... blah blah blah" I was confident and felt amped as I spoke. It just came through me, then I stopped and said a few more things with less confidence talked an abandoned station we were traveling by and turned around. 3 people came to me to give me money and two women asked about the project and how they could find out more about it.

Bread crumb.

I need to keep walking down this path and find the next one. See you there.

Too busy to post!

I must be an alcoholic or something. I'm too busy to do anything, but I just got Klonopin for my panic attacks due to the stress of making magic. Baby... Whoo! I'm delerious, but not like Eddie Murphy, more like That drunk guy from the end of Lolita. What's his name? Fuck Peter Sellers! he rules! I love Kubrick! and Glenlivet! But not Glengarry or glenross! David Mamet is a dick. But he's smart. Eh, he's okay. I feel like I'm on crack. The only down time... Not that I've done crack.. but the only down time we get is after we scramble together to send e-mails and other various... Also, Sasha Grey is awesome.

Jeff

Rochacha

Driving to Rochester sucks. We're tired, Pink Floyd loves me, and we're making fucking Magic, as Jonathan would say. But nobody ever mentioned anything about magic being so difficult and time consuming to make. At least they have good Bar-Be-Q in the Roch.

Lovin every minute of it,

Jeff

Getting there

Changes... things are never gonna be the same.... ooohhh ooohh yeah yeah yeah...

We made some cutbacks this week, sent some letters out (we'll be sending many more) and contemplated a loan or two. I don;t really care. I'll do anything for this project. I'm in love. We have 1 character left to cast (the main and most important one) and we're both falling apart. We don't even have time to post blogs. So, buh bye!

Come to the event on Saturday! Whoo hoo!

Jeff